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Sunday, June 8, 2014

The Beauty of Being Alone





A flurry of departing  footsteps, the sound of a car reversing, the clank of the bolt over the old Iron Gate and then silence. I am still in the early morning rush hour mould of hurrying, almost scampering from one room to the kitchen and then to another room and back to the kitchen and then to...

It takes a few minutes to register that there is no longer any need to hurry. I am alone . A surge of freedom envelops me. The sound of silence  is  mellifluous .I stand still so that the flapping sound of my night gown stops .The house is like a zone of silence. I look around -hey! the rooms suddenly seem to have grown; they look so big. Space -all mine. I sit on the carpet and close my eyes. I breathe in and then out - in and out - slowly. Somewhere in my subconscious it registers that I am doing pranayam -what I see ( in between scampering) the husband doing daily. I give pranayam the status of like . Fifteen minutes later I feel sufficiently oxidised and get up . A bath seems a good idea - a nice lonnng warm water bath . While testing the warmth of the water  I find myself humming - the realization immediately makes me stop- I am a terrible singer. But then comes the blissful awareness of aloneness-and the humming resumes interspersed with some singing. Status- like.

I survey the contents of the refrigerator .Porridge ? no .Too healthy and husbandish. Mushroom and cheese toast ? no- too children-ish. I want my own breakfast .Five minutes later I am sitting at the table-2 golden brown toasted toast-one dripping with melted butter and the other smothered with my childhood favorite-guava jelly in front of me. On the side is a cup of strong coffee-with just a dash of milk. Status-  love.

Can bliss ever be everlasting? Nah. Bliss is ephemeral -like a beautiful dream , like the whiff of a stranger's perfume ,like the sound of applause . The phone rings . It breaks everything -the silence, the aloneness, the languor , the bliss. It is when I have already picked up the phone that I realize that I have done a Peter Keating. I didn't walk to the phone slowly. I half ran to it -eagerly.

It is the husband. Just a follow up  to tell me to follow up on the carpenter. He has to fix the loose ply in the office .The call ends. I glance at the inbox. One from  the daughter. College profs on a flash strike. She is on her way home. Could I please have a slapdash lunch ready?

It promises to be a normal day.

19 comments:

  1. After reading this, I too wish to spend a few moments alone :)
    Thanks for your post

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    1. You will get those moments from now- just learn to steal them :)

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    1. Thank you ! Glad you were here :)

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  3. One should be alone every day at least for a while, it improves self-awareness.

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    1. Yes- and brings one a whole lot of peace...:)

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  4. LOVED IT
    IT REMINDS ME FAMOUS QUOTE OF SWAMI VIVEKANAND
    "TALK TO YOURSELF AT LEAST ONCE IN A DAY , OTHERWISE U MAY MISS A MEETING WITH AN EXCELLENT PERSON IN THIS WORLD"

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    1. What a lovely quote ! Thanks Varsha:)

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  5. Home Alone...Wow that does ring in a bell !!
    Home alone and nothing to do status -Like and being at home all by yourself and someone breaks the silence zone yup that irritates me a lot...
    I do love my family ...a great deal but i sure do like being the calm and quiet that comes with BEING HOME ALONE !!!

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    1. Yes, Veena- I agree that the desire to be alone at times is independent of our love for our family.

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  6. I read your post for the first time and I really enjoyed it!
    I can very well understand what you mean by 'freedom'! It is exactly how I feel in the same situation.....sheer bliss! And your breakfast did make my mouth water!
    Lovely post.....looking forward to many more....

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    1. Thank you so much ,Shilpa. And you are most welcome to share my breakfast with me anytime:)

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  7. I agree with you..I love being alone...to spend time with myself... :-)

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  8. Awesome Post... In full agreement ..loved it :)

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  9. I travel most of the time alone ..I explore for places like 6 months together.. I could relate to your post so well. Nice read.

    Regards
    Rutavi Mehta
    www.photokatha.in
    T:@rutaagayire

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  10. Hey Rutavi- lovely name:) I totally envy your traveling part - and in the context of my post- the 'alone' part too :)

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  11. Nice post, was just scanning IB and found this on the 'this day last year' , enjoyed reading, so very relatable to every housewife.

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